I’m really struggling with my weight and I don’t know where to go from here
In the past I always said I would never hit 400 pounds.
This week I went to the doctor and the scale said 397.4 pounds.
I’m terrified!
I kept my composure but it’s all that I can think about.
Around a month ago (378 pounds) I noticed I started having trouble reaching further back when I use the bathroom.
Now I’ve always been a bigger person but I’ve never had an issue with it bc I was bullied as a kid and as an adult I love myself bc I’m the only person I need or have at the end of the day. My self confidence isn’t great but I’m very good at faking it until I believe it
However with this new scale number seeing it broke me
I don’t know where to go to from here
My mom tells me start walking
My answer: walk in the day, for people to stair and point? I live in a nice neighborhood where people point, stop you to ask what are you up to etc. walk at night.. and get taken or hit by a car? Walk at the track nearby, alone with my thoughts or with earphones where someone can sneak up on me?
My entire life I’ve always been good at exercising in sports
But now that I’m an adult I’m not in sports. I work I come home, sleep eat dinner watch tv and sleep.
My daily meals look like
Breakfast:
McDonald’s: 2 sausage biscuits, a hash brown, a small orange Fanta
Or
Shipley: 2 kolaches, a bag of 12 donut holes
Lunch:
A 24oz smoothie, a Chicken pesto flat bread with cheese and a personal sized bag of baked lays sometimes two bags.
Or
A 24oz smoothie, a 12 in tortilla with 6 slices of turkey, mozzarella cheese, smoked cheese, cheddar cheese, beans, rice, honey mustard, and spinach.
Dinner (when my parents don’t cook):
Jack n the box: Buttery bacon Swiss burger with large curly fry and a lemonade from sonic.
Or
12 frozen chicken nuggets air fried with ketchup and a side of some sort.
I never drink alcohol. Other than my lemonade at dinner and a smoothie during lunch, I ONLY drink water.
I know my diet isn’t the best but considering my lunch is kept nutritional I don’t think I eat the worst.
I would love a gym membership to work out but people stair and I’m the fat person amongst the xl shirt wearing people. I need to be there. They want to be. I also just don’t have gym money. I’m tired of feeling bigger than I want to be. I don’t feel ugly I am happy with life and myself. But I just want to be lighter.
I want to sit in a chair without considering if it’ll break or not.
Surgery (gastric bypass etc) is not an option.
How can I help myself? What can I do to stay motivated?
As a kid I was always bigger. But I was in bowling, karate, color guard, softball and so much more for years and years. But now that I have no one making me stretch/exercise I hate it. And I think back to being a kid forced to exercise crying to my mom about how much I hate the sport. But I loved the sports. I hated the exercise and being winded and hot and sweaty. I hated sweating. When I go outside now if it’s hot and I sweat I’ll start crying and getting overwhelmed looking for shade. I’m just exhausted with myself and I need someone to motivate me and make me do this for myself.
I just don’t know where I’d even begin to get that kind of structure without paying an arm and a leg.
Help me please I would want to loose like 200 pounds in a perfect world
How can I achieve this goal?
Is the next 5 years of my life gonna be spent tortured with watching my diet and getting my walking and eventually running in every day?
I think it’s so stupid that it seems I’m gonna have to spend the next however many years of my life focused on exercising just to lose weight to be healthy. Why can’t I just be healthy without thinking about it
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