I have always had problems with my weight, sometimes warranted sometimes not. When I was younger I was a dancer and I would train nearly everyday and still I wasn't thin, just slim. As I grew I got older into my late teens and twenties I stopped dancing and started working and slowly over the years I put on weight until I got to around 83kg 174cm. I was so miserable and I tried to lose weight Many times but I never had the discipline to follow through with it and would end up overeating. Food is comfort for me, I am aware of this but it doesn't make it easier to stop.
When covid hit I was a medical student and was asked to work in intensive care and this was quite scary at the time. I saw a lot of death and after my first attempt at CPR that failed - I went to eat a load of mac and cheese and I had a realisation that I would face death many times in my career and I couldn't always turn to food for comfort and decided to make a change.
From then on I lost around 20kg in about 3 months (I know this was extremely fast) - by calorie counting and walking/running 20-30k steps a day. I maintained this weightloss for 2.5 years by being strict with food and also exercising everyday. I really enjoyed the exercise and it became apart of me.
When I started working as a doctor I had to move cities to a much busier city. I met my partner and had a baby very quickly. My pregnancy was stressful and my baby had colic for 4 months and I ate a lot as comfort and boredom. I am now 83kg again, back at work, stressed out with having 20 month old and my partner works insane hours.
I have tried to lose this weight. I have such internal guilt when I see mums who has already lost their baby weight. My son is almost 2 and I still haven't lost it. I am working part time now and get 2 days off a week and I still find it so insanely hard to find the motivation to exercise as I have housework to do etc. I also have an ASD diagnosis, while this doesn't usually impact my day to day life - I find I need those days to decompress or I get quite bad anxiety.
I think I'm asking - how do I get the motivation back? I don't understand how I managed to do it so well during covid and remain that way for over two years to have lost it now? Any tips or advice would be appreciated.
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