I’ve been on a really long weight loss journey — I most closely relate to my current and most recent one, where i started at about 158 in April and am now 143. But, I truly started this journey in 2019 when I hit my highest of 190. I now know and understand that I’d probably be perceived on the thinner side or at least average side to most, but it’s something I just can’t grasp and am not sure I ever will.
I’ve grown up my entire life overweight and the last time I was actually “skinny” was probably when I was 7. Everytime I see a video of someone larger ranting about the need to lose weight I sigh in agreeance (if that’s a word) until I realize I can’t actually relate anymore. I was talking with a plus size friend a few months ago and she mentioned she needed to lose weight to glo up, and I quickly replied same — and the shocked face she shot me reminded me I indeed am not living in a larger body anymore nor can be perceived to be.
Today, the final straw I guess in this realization was my nail tech telling me I look really small. Just shocking! It’s weird because I know it’s affirmation my hard work is paying off, but I’m not sure my brain will ever make the full connection. I have more weight I wanna lose but sometimes it’s almost discouraging that my brain, again, won’t fully understand that I’ve done it.
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