At around the age of 11 I started to gain weight and develop bad eating habits and eventually an eating disorder. By the time I entered high school I was at around 180lbs. This wasn't good for me because I was and still am a short guy at five foot and six inches tall.
Where I really did the most damage was during the pandemic. I jumped up to over 200 pounds. Somewhere between 200-205lbs. I gained weight rapidly during this time. It was the heaviest I have ever been.
I'm 19 now and I have lost some weight. The last time I weighed myself I was at 154lbs. But the damage has already been done.
I developed what I believe to be acanthosis nigricans. I noticed my skin appeared to be "stained." This happened around my elbows, underarms, knee's, inner thighs leading into my butt. From my hip line down to my low hip line it's darker from other areas on my body.
I developed skin creases on my chest and on my upper stomach.
Then, the worst of all of these, the stretch marks. I cry when I look at these. I got them on my upper arms, lower back (looks like a tramp stamp), and inner thighs leading into my butt. Sadly, around my arms and thighs the skin feels a bit flabby too.
I still want to lose some more weight, but I am defeated. For some reason I thought this would magically just go away once I started to lose weight. It's hard to find the motivation to continue. I have thought about trying to make this work, but I just can't. I do not like my body and as far as I am aware, there is nothing I can do about it, I cry.
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