Recently, I (19f) and my gf (20f) have decided to try and get in shape together. Only thing is, she seems to be doing so much better than me and it makes me so insecure and upset and scared and just hate myself. I mean, this poor girl is trying her best and now she has to deal with a blubbery pile of dead, useless, unattractive weight stuck to her side? I love her so much and I wish I could be doing half as good as she is.
I feel like the “ugly one” and it makes me get so sad whenever I see her. I don’t know what’s happening. It’s gotten to the point where I won’t let her see me in anything other than an oversized sweatshirt and I hate when she holds my stomach. I feel like the calorie counting has almost become competitive, we will talk about how little we are or how much we exercised and I find myself feeling the need to “catch up” to her progress otherwise I’m a lazy piece of garbage.
I genuinely hate myself so much and I don’t see what she sees in me. I feel so on edge and I’m not even comfortable enough to let her love me because I’m too ashamed of what I look like. How do I catch up to her? How do I get on her level of looking good and doing good? Should I start fasting? I want to start throwing up my food again. Im so desperate to be anything but myself. Please help Edit: spelling
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