I am 32f, 5’2”, sw: 147, cw: 133, gw: 115
I started antidepressants in early 2020, because of severe anxiety and depression that were driving me towards suicide. In many ways, I am sure Zoloft saved my life.
But it also made me gain 30lbs. I have always been slim, so this was a shock to everyone. And my family has been awful about it.
My mom moved into my one bedroom apartment with me for three months during the pandemic because she wasn’t getting along with my dad. During this time, she would call her friends and be giggling and say things like “you won’t believe how much weight probsandsols has gained, she’s so fat now.” I yelled at her for this because I wouldn’t even talk about people I hate like this, how can she talk about me like that when she’s my guest? And she said I was being too sensitive.
I have since quit the medication because I can’t handle the anxiety that came with the weight gain and I kind of white knuckle my way through the original anxiety and depression. It’s not easy, but I’m doing it and I’m back in a healthy weight range. My dad visits me today and starts poking my belly saying “what is this? Men like women who take care of themselves, your boyfriend will leave you if you continue like this.” My boyfriend wasn’t present when my dad said this, but he would have stood up for me if he was because he actually likes me.
But I don’t get it, these are my parents, aren’t they supposed to be supportive? They know about my mental health struggles, shouldn’t they be happy I’m alive, instead of putting more pressure on me?
Has anyone been through anything similar? I’m doing my best, but I’m just so sad right now. They’ve always been emotionally abusive, but this hits differently.
[link] [comments]
from loseit - Lose the Fat https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/uzgx9c/i_hate_my_family/
Comments
Post a Comment