Rant: I wish I was a fat child growing up

M/18 5’9” SW:230 CW: 175 GW: 148

I’m currently the skinniest I have ever been in my entire life. Like not even the first time I lost weight was I this thin. Yet, I can’t see it in the mirror. Obviously I can see that I’ve changed, but personally I don’t think I did as much as people are telling me. The complements are nice, and I’m happy to hear them but I have mixed reactions. On one end I feel like they are lying to make me feel better but on the other hand, I’m like thank you because I’ve worked my ass off to look like this. Growing up fat as a kid no one wanted to be around me or pick me for anything, so I had to build a personality. It worked, I can mesmerize people with just my words, but I never really felt seen. Now that I’m starting to get more attention from people in my family and my friends I don’t really know how to feel. Then it’s the aspect of building muscle. I build muscle at a decent rate, I’m not a hard gainer when it comes to putting on mass, but regardless I still have too much body fat to see any of my results. My friend which is skinny and has always been looks incredible and we’ve been working out for the same amount of time. I’m not saying it to bash him or compare, Im stating the truth, he has to go through one less process than I do. I mean this all to say that I’m really proud of my progress and that I finally started to go to the gym for myself. Other’s opinions on my body or me don’t matter to me, I just wish this process wasn’t so long. I want to see my amazing body under this fat.

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