After all, I deserved it. I worked my ass off to get here, so I might as well celebrate.
I have pancakes for breakfast which were drowned in nutella and maple syrup, for lunch I have 2 smoked salmon sandwiches, and for dinner I have an extra large bowl of Pad Thai.
Not bad right? Perfect balance between celebrating while keeping my health in mind. But then after dinner, the late night cravings hit.
I stuff myself with everything in the kitchen. Brownies, cookies, even plain slices of bread. If it was edible, I was shoving it in my mouth. It didnt even taste good anymore, but I needed food in my mouth.
After the cheat day I feel like shit. In one day I feel like I undid all my hard work in one night, lying on my bloated stomach in bed thinking "what did I just do?" I toss and turn all night and don't get much sleep. "It's ok" I tell myself, "I'll just restart tommorow."
Tomorrow comes. I wake up extra bloated and do the worst possible thing to do after a cheat day - I step on the scale. 5 lbs gained. I know I didnt actually gain 5 lbs, but seeing that number on the scale made me scared and stressed.
Well now I'm bloated, stressed out, and coming off of a night with no sleep. I get cravings, and basically repeat my cheat day. The same the next day. And the day after. And the day after.
I cant control myself. I dont even remeber how I stuck to a diet and how I used exercise every day. I can't beleive that everything changed so quickly. Every night I tell myself "I'll restart tomorrow." That day never comes.
Now 3 weeks since my "celebration". Up 15lbs (weighed when I wasnt bloated). Still eating like shit. Confused, lost, and trying to break the binge cycle.
What a celebration.
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