Hi, all!
I've spent my entire life obese, from childhood til now. I currently weigh ~230lbs, with my highest recorded weight being 260lbs. When I met my spouse, he helped teach me nutrition and got me out of the house, I had made it to 200 then.
I've never actually seen below 200, I'm paying for a gym membership I don't use, and I've fallen back into my usual rut. I'm tired, guys.
Maybe it's that I don't see results fast enough, or I can't quiet temptation, but for some reason I just can't stay on the wagon. My self esteem has plummeted, my spouse believes I've developed body dysmorphia. I've began to cover the mirror when I take a shower, because I can't stand to look at myself.
I guess what I'm asking is, what did you do to stay with it? Does it ever start to feel better? I used to be content with being fat, but now I realize all of the things that come with that; being the joke, the inability to wear fashionable clothes, and I can only assume my depression and anxiety are only heightened by my weight.
I need help, I'll admit it. I've tried so many times to just give up, using poor excuses every time. I just want to be happy.
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