I was 460, and now I’m 275. I’d lost 185lbs and I swear to you my mental state is worse now. I’ve always been a person who loved themselves. I do. I like who I am. I like my personality, I like that I’m a good friend. I’m funny, I’m smart, I work hard.
I did this because I couldn’t get anyone I wanted to like me interested. I’ve never dated. I get zero response on dating apps and all the people I know “just want to be friends.”
I understand stating I love myself and then taking about the validation I’m seeking from outside sources is contradictory. I get it. But it is so hard to tell yourself you are good enough when no one else seems to see it. The works does not like fat people. And it is so frustrating to spend years losing 185lbs staring at another 100 to go, knowing I’m still morbidly obese and the end just isn’t I sure
I’m just struggling guys. I want this so bad. And I want to stop feeling like I’m just not good enough. Like Jesus fucking Christ!!! 185lbs and I get treated the same. I still get made fun of. A kid the other day asked his mom why I was so fat.
I just don’t even get the fucking point right now.
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