Hi,
so Im just a depressed mess now. I really tried this time, I properly counted calories, eating more green salats that I have ever tough would be possible and actually enjoying them, drinking so much water that just going to toilet upped my step count to 15K no problemo. I even stoped putting that 1 sugar spoon in my coffee just to obliterate any excuse that could get me back to my old bad habits. And also I felt like this time Im doing it for me and myself only, not to please someone not to look good, but to be really proud and strong and to find out what my body can actually do.
I loved the way my body started to feel, and after just a month or so of properly working out 3-4 times a week I started to see the feel difference in myself and even people around me commented how much slimmer I look, how much healthier I seem.... and than on Wednesday I hit my new personal record on treadmill - 3km under 20 minutes - I felt so strong and proud, like I know it is not much, but it is me that fat girl that just managed to outrun her inner fear (also hit lowest weight since started to do this small changes from 218+ to 207lb).
And then I went home, reaching for my keys from my backpack my torso was halfway turned back and and I managed to step in hole on sidewalk. And then like in a slow motion... and I first heard the "snap" than felt it and just crashed to the ground like a sack of potatoes. Holding keys in my hand and backpack in other I didnt even tried to slow my fall with hands like a normal person would and my whole bodyweight just crashed on my ankle.
Cue the cry, pain, panic... phone call to BF to come pick me up because I could not stand up. Cancelling a dream job interview because I cant go there next day... all the fun stuff, but the worst was the very first feeling as I sat on cold ground on my sprained ankle, I just thought this will stop you once again you will fail, like before.
And that hurt much more than the whole ankle and anything I hurt at the fall. And it is all I could think about, this betrayal from my body. I was doing so good, I felt that I can do this this time and now I cant do anything at all.
It is saturday day 3 after now. I can stand on it. I can move my fingers and do circular motion with my foot. Our neighbour, who is medic saw my fall actually told me I got really lucky I didnt break anything... But it is still getting swollen and I dont know for how much longer I can just sit on couch do nothing. I should be on rest for at least 2 - 3 weeks (just writing it down made me cry) . What can I do to not let this stop me? How can I bounce back faster? Is there anything beside sit ups I can do for home workout not to loose all the muscle endurance I just started to build up? Almost all the routines I know and do are heavily leg based and I cant do anything that would apply pressure to my foot.
Please help me not give up on myself.
I really want to do this,
I want to go to gym and work out,
I need that post workout endorphins rush,
I will sit on couch with my foot up, icing it another few days... fuck.
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