18F- Need to lose weight for health for health reasons, but the idea of not being fat makes me incredibly uncomfortable, looking for advice.
Been atleast overweight since I was about 8 or so. Became 200 something at 12. Probably mid 200’s range now idk. I think I’ve lost a bit of weight since stopped certainly medications (pants are always falling down, womp womp) but I kinda purposely don’t look at my body so uh idk. Put on some arm muscle though, thats cool. Weights probably somewhat my parents fault (Both my mom and dad are overweight/obese, my brother isn’t but that’s because he’s an athlete, and I’ve always just kinda ate whatever they gave me) medication (antipsychotics and antidepressants fuck with your appetite, I felt hungry 24/7, been on them since I was 12, stopped recently) and having a heavy sweet tooth, which has kinda stopped after being on metformin. I’m 5’9 if that means anything.
I have PCOS, so losing weight will help me, but also the idea of being thin or even just overweight makes me kinda miserable and disgusted. I’m not fond of having feminine features/a female body, and being fat somewhat makes you more androgynous, especially with clothing on. Makes me more fridge like. I have an hourglass figure with broad shoulders, if I lose weight, it’ll show up more. The idea of looking like my normal, healthy weight, female peers, makes me uncomfortable. The idea of looking more feminine disgusts me. I like being bigger. And if I lose weight- my excess T will go away, and that makes me feel sad.
Also, calorie counting sounds miserable, and I don’t want to do that. Nor does keto or whatever. Any of that stuff irks me out to no end. I like the idea of exercising, and I’ve been lifting weights and walking more, but also I get sick quite a bit and injured easily so it’s hard to be as consistent as I would like. It’s getting better somewhat, as I’ve had progress on some chronic pain so walking no longer feels awful and is enjoyable. I hope one day I can run. I would like that I think.
For food I just eat if I’m hungry and stop when I’m full and thats about that. I’m no longer hungry 24/7 so I eat a bit less now. I am neutral about most food, I like sweets but recently they feel eh and I think thats just metformin or something. I really like fruit, and flavoured Greek yogurt, so I’ve been eating a lot of Greek yogurt. Honestly I just eat whatever’s the most convient or close by. I don’t think I have any issues with food like binge eating, I just eat too much I guess lol.
I’m going to college for a year, I can choose what I eat now. I’m thinking maybe just make slightly healthier choices? Idk, is there like small things I can do to change shit? Lose a bit of weight? Without having to do keto or download a stupid app? Genuinely I have no idea. Someone give me advice or something. Tbh I’d rather just get more buff and stay fat but alas having type 2 diabetes would suck.
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