I hate the way I look because of my obesity. I’ve been through some traumatic stuff that led me to have an eating disorder and i ended up gaining nearly a 100 pounds. I’m 5’0 , 23 years old and female and weigh 188 as of now, back in April/May I used to weight 200-203(fluctuate around that weight) and eventually git down to the high 190s, then went to a foreign country for a month and lost some weight bringing me to my current weight🧿🧿.
I used to weigh around 118-120, but I was skinny fat. I’m Indian and vegetarian so I can’t have meat or egg. Its harder for me to build muscle and I never had muscle, and I used to severely undereat because I would be scared that I would gain weight. So I woild try to keep it within 1000 calories or slightly less. Basically i collapsed and couldn’t take it went into a deep depression, and started binging like crazy. Which led me to gain nearly 85🧿🧿pounds. I’m in much better control of what I eat now. I try to start off the day with sourdough bread and avacao spread or I just wake ip mid day and go straight into lunch where I have lentil soup or red lentil pasta. Then run errands then get a snack then dinner. But I hate the way I look, like my stomach is literally hanging out of my body. My knock knees have gotten worsle, I get like yeast/fungi under my breasts because of the moisture/heat from having a bigger chest.
Its honestly so gross.I look like I gave birth to five kids, when I didn’t. Like I don’t even want to take care of myself anymore. I don’t want to dress up. I dont want to wax my stache or do my brows. Because I hate how i look. I’ve started to loathe myself more and more. I always wantedd to look like those girls that have abs and are lean and fit, who have normal legs and not knock knees. I wish I was like those girls with banging bods. It just seems like my body isn’t even built like that to begin with.
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