So, tonight after I took a shower I noticed (not for the first time) that I had some yellowing of the skin around my armpit. Normally I would tell myself it's deodorant discolouration, but I'm trying not to lie to myself anymore. Then I THINK I have some yellowing around the sides of my neck, but it's incredibly faint to the point that I can't tell if it was due to the lighting or if I was imagining it.
Anyways, I am deathly terrified of developing type 2 diabetes. Despite just not wanting to be fat anymore, it's one of the main reasons I decided to change my habits and lose weight. I occasionally get pretty thirsty, but I also haven't been drinking nearly enough water regularly. I piss probably a normal amount of times a day, but I had a night where I had like 2 diet sodas while hanging out and had to pee like 3 times in about 5 hours which also freaked me out. I can easily sustain myself on 1500 cals a day, which at first I thought was great, but now I'm worried that it's because my blood sugar might be dangerously high. It doesn't help that I accidentally went over my 1500 cal budget today by 75 cals (miscalculated), which I know should have almost no effect, but I'm not super rational when I freak out like this (I am diagnosed with OCD).
I guess, what I'm wondering is am I too late? I used to tell myself at my heaviest (105kg for sure, probably higher but I was afraid to weigh myself then) that I didn't have to worry about diabetes because I don't have a big family history of it, which I now realize is such fucking cope. I've lost about 20 lbs in around 2 months and was loving this progress, but now I'm worried that it's too little too late. I have an appointment tomorrow for an unrelated reason, so I might ask about it then.
Any words of solace or similar experiences are appreciated. Sorry for the rant.
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