From as long as I can remember I’ve dealt with binge eating disorder and it’s progressively gotten worse, especially this year. I used to be pretty overweight and I dropped about 20kgs last year and my perspective around food completely changed once I figured out calorie deficit and calorie counting. But even when I’m in a calorie deficit and eating high volume meals I’ve always dealt with the worst cravings, constant food noise that will never go away. Sugar is my worst enemy, some days I would binge for an entire week and then go back on a calorie deficit and binge again. It was like a never ending cycle, when I binged it felt like no matter how much I eat I need to eat more, even when I’m full I still have this sensation to eat more food, more sugar. Whenever I see people around me like parents or friends eating intuitively I genuinely don’t understand it because for me It’s like my whole life revolves around food and I just can’t stop thinking about it, even being on social media whenever I see food videos it triggers all of my cravings. Eventually I just give in to my cravings and start going crazy eating everything in sight. Going to the supermarket to buy snacks and hiding them from my parents so they don’t see how much I’ve been eating. Last night I ate an entire tub of ice cream and god knows what else I can’t even remember. Even times where I let myself have a sweet treat I go crazy and end up binging because I feel like I’m never going to have access to these foods again. I’ve genuinely hit rock bottom and I’m honestly so ashamed to even be sharing this online but I just need someone to give me advice on how to stop this or develop better habits because I’m so sick and tired of letting food control my life.
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