Hello all. I’ve been a lurker here for quite some time, and this is my first post. I’m 21(M) and have a bit more weight on me than I’d like. I’m around 5’11, and I’m at 187 and it’s all fat basically.
I used to work very active jobs and really didn’t eat much so I didn’t think about weight all that much, although i didn’t have the best relationship with food. But I was happy with my body. That was 2 years ago, since then, I got a desk job march of last year and everything went down hill there. I’ve gained almost 50 pounds since March ‘23, and I’ve recently had a hard time looking at myself in the mirror. My clothes are tighter, people mention my weight gain, all the fun stuff /s.
I honestly was kind of blind to it for a while, not sure if that was subconscious denial or just me not thinking it was an issue. Then one day I was with my partner and we went swimming, her mom took a picture of us and when I saw it I was like “wow, where did all that come from?” But then it realized it’s been there and been creeping up for months.
Fast forward to now, I’m unemployed and have spent the last 100 days living probably the most unhealthy lifestyle I’ve ever lived. It doesn’t help that me losing my job means that I can’t afford to get the mental and physical support I need (I suffer from OCD, anxiety, seasonal depression, and a autoimmune disease), which are all made worse by my current lifestyle.
I’m vowing to make a change right now and will come back to this post in exactly a year to update it, with progress pictures and stats. Even if no one else comes back to this, I will.
I do ask for any words of support or encouragement. This feels like a huge uphill battle and even though it’s only 20-30 pounds I want to lose and then slowly gain some back in muscle, it feels impossible to me. I literally feel stuck.
Thanks for listening to my rant. I plan to return on 7/27/25.
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