So, I've recently taken notice of the fact that I've begun to gain weight again after a very long period of staying at a lower weight. I was pretty overweight in high school (190 at 5'9) and since entering college I've actually more or less accidentally done a good job at losing a lot of weight, due to a variety of factors (the lowest I got was 135, 5'10). It was extremely hard to get groceries, due to distance and a lack of any decent way to transport them. I got most of my food from university dining hall, since I worked there I got one free meal a day. I guess it was easy to compartmentalize that and say "Ok, here is the spot where I eat the junkier stuff" and I'd eat one treat with every meal and call it good. I did do some basic calorie counting but not really much of anything else to spur that loss on.
In essence, I guess you could say that the universe more or less conspired to make me lose a lot of weight. That's all well and good, I suppose, but I got complacent and now I've got 20 pounds back of the 55-60 I lost. My new car has made getting groceries much easier, which has also encouraged frequent purchases of unhealthy snacks. I'm still in the habit of eating sweet things, but I CONSTANTLY have access to them now instead of just once a day. I don't work at the dining hall anymore, so I don't have my easily compartmentalized "this is where I eat treats" zone anymore. I've also noticed that when I cook for myself I tend to make heavier food and take bigger portion sizes than what I did at the dining hall. The weight gain was a slow insidious matter of "Oh I'm just 140 instead of 135 now, I'm still really light. Oh I'm just 145 I'm still light." Etc etc. Now I'm 155 and I'm sort of getting a reality check that hey-- this isn't something to ignore anymore. Still at a healthy BMI and much lighter than I ever was in HS but I do NOT like the direction this is going. I need to nip this NOW.
In a sense, that's why I want encouragement/advice. Objectively speaking, I've done it once, I can do it again, but the urgency of "look how bad things have gotten you gotta fix it right now" is somewhat paralyzing. The sense of impending doom is making it hard to just proceed like I normally would. It's like "it's too late anyway, you screwed up, time to watch helplessly as you gain all of it back." Idk if anyone's got good ideas for how to get my emotions under control and maybe drop back to 140ish while I'm at it, I'm listening.
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