I have come down with tonsilitis. In my diagnosis the doctor mentioned "grossly enlarged tonsils" which means, it hurts to swallow. Even saliva. I winced with every bite but I still continued to eat chips and cake. As someone who is pre-diabetic and has about 60 pounds to lose, I sit and wonder if I have no future. The pain I am willing to go through when I am eating, I am not willing to when I am at the gym or when I have to stand up and chop vegetables for a salad. I did go the gym for 2 weeks in March. But gave up after 2 weeks citing lack of energy as my reason. How will I get energy if I do not eat anything home cooked or healthy? I have been in a chronic state of stress regarding my fat loss since I was in the 8th grade.
The country I come from, our diets are mostly carb dense, so I essentially have no protein. Living like this reinforces the idea that you are a loser which in turn stops you from taking any steps to better yourself. This is a vicious loop. This has no end if you don't break it.
I am disgusted and tired of myself. I know many people here have probably done and been through things worse. I would like to read a few reassuring stories of people who did get out of this awful loop.
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