I (26f) have been struggling a lot with my weight. My doctors think its possible I have PCOS because I often get ovarian cysts, im always exhausted, hair loss/ gain, and I have high testosterone. Im not on any meds and dont have insurance to get tested. Im also considered obsese, im unsure of my weight right now since I dont have the courage to look at a scale, but Im 4"11 and was 165lbs at some point.
Around the beginning of the year, I was on a keto diet and I lost 15lbs in a few months. I was about 20-30lbs shy of my goal weight.
Ive always had a weird relationship with food, I tend to overeat and have impulse control (neurodivergent). My family also has fat shamed me since I was a little girl and constantly harass me about my butt even though I cant help being curvy since Im mixed. At some point in high school I developed severe IBS, doctor suggested I had chronic fatigue syndrome as well. I couldnt eat anything but rice and oatmeal for 2 years and I was following a FODMAP diet. Then I reintroduced food and I suddenly was able to eat everything I couldn't before. Then the binging began and that came with food addiction. Nobody in my house is supportive of my weight and I have no support system outside of my family, which makes it harder to lose weight.
Fast forward to today, I have gained back weight I had lost, plus some. I feel so dejected and im struggling so much. I feel like a failure. Ive tried so hard to lose weight. Im so unbelievably exhausted that I can never exercise because I almost faint, even if its mild exercise. I have depression, anxiety, and all I want to do is stay shut up in my bedroom and cry. I dont have money for therapy or a nutritional coach and I wish I had a support system. Im struggling so much. Calorie counting also triggers my s****dal depression and since my grandma cooks, I dont know how to calorie count the food she makes anyways (I live at home with family).
I dont know what to do, how to build up confidence and willpower, and I dont know where to start with losing weight. I feel lost and everytime I look in the mirror I struggle with body dysmorphia and hating myself. I always default to abusing my body through bad diets, starving, fasting, eating barely anything I love, restriction and it doesnt work. I crave really badly and eat when I dont have energy (which is all the time because it raises my energy), and when I have emotional issues, which is also frequent because of my toxic family members.
Please if anyone has pointers or advice, I really really need it.
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