Hi guys, I am most likely just the same old shit as always, but anyways here is my story. Quick info, I am 24 yo, about 185 cm. I started out at 130 kg, after my break up I got a sudden motivation boost and in the span of 2 weeks I lost 10 kg with just eating less. Over the next 3 months I got down to 102 kg. I was in a really good spot mentally and physically. I had also found a less extreme way of losing weight with a steady 1 kg a week loss.
Somewhere along the way I started eating more again. First few months were denial, I'll just get back to it tomorrow. When I noticed I couldn't pick it up again I fell down that infinite spiral of feeling shit for gaining weight, then eating to attempt (and fail) to make me feel better. Currently at 137 kg well over my starting point.
There are some factors that I blame, but very well know it's an excuse. Mostly hating cooking and disliking most fruits and a some vegetables.
I am currently at the point where I am so self aware and insecure about my body that I avoid going outside. I sit in my room all day (holidays). I am also sweating at the slightest effort making me more avoidant of any moving in public. I live in a city.
My main goal right now is not weight loss, but just going outside. Preferably I want to walk every day as from past experiences it helped me break the loop of thoughts. Just every time I want to go outside I feel anxious about my appearance and my sweating.
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