27f HW: 295 CW: 215 GW: 185
I love my boyfriend very much. We met in June and at the time I was almost one year into my weight loss journey. I had already lost 75lbs at this point with lowcarb. (290-215lbs) He’s extremely loving and understanding. My boyfriend before this was an abusive alcoholic and he’s just great. I am extremely attracted to him and he is always there for me.
However, my boyfriend eats like crap. He loves five guys, Wendy’s and pizza. He’ll eat candy, drink beer. Loves pasta and fried chicken. But he can do this because he’s 135lbs and 5’6. He also naturally just never really feels that hungry and eats very little. He eats poorly but not a lot of food. He has a lean muscular frame without much thought. His body just works how it’s supposed to and his hunger cues are where they should be. This often makes me feel jealous, if I’m being honest. He gets to just enjoy food without anxiety.
I have IR and a binge eating problem as well as PCOS. I was managing it well when we met but I cannot handle being around these foods. Bread before dinner means I’ll eat a bag of candy later. He can just have bags of chips and candy untouched in his kitchen for months. I don’t trust myself to keep crackers in the house. I will easily binge an entire bag of chips, with dinner and sweets.
Sadly I have fallen off majorly with my diet. I have somehow managed to not gain weight since we met but I haven’t lost any, and I know I have more body fat to muscle than when we met. My stomach has grown back some.
Mostly I just feel exhausted all the time and my acne has come back. I hate the way I feel. I have talked to him about my diet and he knows about my condition but will just ask to go for pizza the next day.
We’re moving in together in august and I’m scared to have his junk food in the house around me 24/7. Everytime I try to be good it just becomes harder when he orders something I’d really rather have than salad or chicken and veggies. I do cook for us fairly often but I don’t always want to cook.
I realize it’s not his fault, life comes with constant temptation with PCOS and binge eating. It’s just become astronomically more difficult for me. Like a viscous cycle the more carbs I eat the more I want and the harder it becomes. My hormones get thrown off and then I sleep for up to 12 hours a day and won’t want to even get out of bed, then I just gain and lose more and more energy.
How do I stay strong? I love him very much and I don’t know who to assert more boundaries. I feel guilty having to make him change what he eats or his habits because he doesn’t have the punishment behind it. With each day I want to do well and then get offered to go for burgers and then I fail again.
How do I manage this?
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