Think I gave myself an eating disorder + stomach motility problems? Keep losing and gaining the same 20lbs.
TRIGGER WARNING calories and poop
I’ve definitely always had disordered eating. It’s how I managed to jump from 130 to 225lbs in less than a year. In 2020, I was able to drop 50lbs down to 175-180 without thinking too much about it. Just cutting alcohol and moving around more. Now I’ve gained some back, and while I’ve kept off the heavy drinking and been less sedentary, I keep teetering from 180 to nearly 200lbs. And I see exactly where the issue is…I’ve become extremely caloric restrictive for 4-5 days of the week (anywhere from 0-600cals), then go absolutely haywire on my days off…easily consuming 3-5,000kcal.
I’ve completely screwed my bowels up. I can only shit once a week, sometimes nearing 2 weeks (and when I do, it’s a mass extinction event). Seriously. I can’t remember the last time I’ve gone any significant amount of time without stomach pain, and it’s really impeding the physical/exercise aspect of weight loss that I desperately need for my heart (and my sanity). Back when I was fit, biking was my mental health maintenance, It used to be something I looked forward to.
My goal is 150-160lbs. Still on the heavier side for my height (5’4”), but at least enough to hopefully bring down my blood pressure. I’m 26, with a family history of heart disease, and I’ve already been to the hospital twice for hypertensive emergencies. I can’t imagine all this gaining and losing is helpful.
Anyone else go through this? I feel like the binge and constipation is what triggers the following restriction. Just because after awhile the heaviness and pain becomes unbearable. How can I stop the cycle in its tracks? yesterday was my designated shittting day, and I was only able to get down 3 scrambled eggs since then. So I’ve got a “clean slate” atm. What should I do going forward? I’ve found that apples help a good deal, so I for sure want to start an apple a day routine. Right now V8 and pickle juice are the only things remotely appetizing to me :(
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