Hey! I've been a lifelong yo-yo-er. In 2020 I got down to my lowest weight in a while... and I've been there ever since.
During the pandemic I was working out a lot, and while I wasn't at my goal weight, I was confident in my shape and body.
In the past year my workout habits have changed, as a result of the classes I was doing being too expensive to maintain ($1500/month) + work becoming extremely demanding (12+hr days) + moving across the country and adjusting to everything here.
My eating habits have stayed the same. I could afford to pursue a more rigid calorie deficit for sure, but I know I have a very balanced and healthy diet, which is something that has taken me years to make a lifestyle.
Here's my issue. My weight on the scale has not changed a bit, beyond the daily <2lb fluctuations. I've never experienced this. However, my shape certainly has. Clothes don't fit the same, I feel chubby, I wobble, my butt has gotten less... cute. From my limited knowledge, my muscles have shrunk at the same rate that I've gained a few pounds. So I've probably put on 10-15lbs in fat, but lost enough muscle, or something.
Anyway, onto my question. While I kick myself back into a calorie deficit (I truly haven't figured out how to make my workouts like they were, in my new life), how do you deal with the shame? My fiance hasn't said anything unkind or given me any reason to feel bad, but I do. I'm looking shitty, for being the person he's going to walk down the aisle with soon. I'm really feeling embarrassed.
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