I’ve been overweight for almost three years now and it’s got steadily worse due to my eating my emotions and getting more and more sedentary due to the pandemic and just feeling down. I think that because food was a coping mechanism (I was in a frustrating situation that made me feel depressed and used nice food to make me feel better about it) I was willing to accept the extra weight on my body as it seemed like a means to an end.
Earlier this month I decided to get out of the situation that I coped with by overeating. It was a huge change and came with its own set of challenges but ultimately the right thing to do. It’s just yesterday I went shopping for some new clothes and for the first time properly saw and felt how unacceptable things had become despite me losing 4lbs in the last week.
Though I dislike the way I look now I’ve decided that I can also feel compassion and forgive myself for my emotional eating. I was in a really bad situation longer than I needed to be and did my best to stay sane. For me, overeating was the best I could do to survive. Rather than chastising myself I visualise hugging myself and thanking myself for doing all I knew how just to keep going. However I must change now as I’m in a better place and more able to take better care of myself. I’m safe.
I’ve got 32 lbs to lose to get to my ideal weight though losing just 19 will get me back into a healthy BMI and reverse my pre-diabetes. I’ve got myself some medical support and am now exercising every day and logging my food to ensure a calorific deficit. Hopefully by the end of September I’ll reach my goal.
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from loseit - Lose the Fat https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/vlp8mq/venting_facing_my_body_fat/
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