I am a 23 year old male and still live with my parents. I have a lot of problems with them, and a lot more psychological problems. I was around 112 kg 3 weeks ago, now I am around 104. I am eating like a bowl twice a day, I am always hungry and I want to keep this way. I think it will help with my appetite and the amount I eat, and it looks like it does. I am eating healthy and try to eat various things. I don't think that I will have health problems, but of course I would like to do a healthier, easier diet. Because of the problems I have with my family, I can't have time for myself and I can't cook, I never know what is there in the house, and what is in a good condition, and what is clean, what I can find etc. But the main thing is I have to take care of my sister and because of that I spend a lot of time out at the playground or playing with my sister. Anyways, eating 2 meals a day is the only way I can keep up with it and as I said, it goes well. I walk for an hour everyday, drink a lot of water, and very lightly work out for 15 minutes (but it's still so difficult for me).
Anyways, my parents were out for 2 days with my sister and today they came home and, as you can guess we don't get along well, we fought for some reason. I mean they tell me I sleep too much. I feel so tired and I am not motivated at all, I guess I am going to skip the exercise today, it will be a first. And it makes me afraid that rest will come.
My main problem though, when I feel like everything is too much, I want to get away from everything for a second. And I feel like if I sit in front of my computer and eat junk food, I will be having that moment for myself. Now I really want to go buy junk food and fuck everything. I don't even want to eat junk food at this point, I mean I don't want to eat a chocolate or chips or anything, it happened before, I forced myself to eat junk food, that's how I become 110. And now I really just want to eat some junk food, not because I really want to eat it, because it makes me feel like I will feel better when I do. Spoiler: it will make me feel worse even while eating it but I just can't help.
I really want to lose weight though, I am more comfortable, I feel better and I know that you will say that I need help and all but I can't go out in public when I am fat it makes me feel awful. So it plays a huge role for me to have a social life, other than that I am seeing a therapist and using medicine.
Anyway I am sitting in a park now, my fingers are so cold. I don't want to move, I don't want to walk. I can stay up late while my parents are sleeping and eat junk food while watching a film, I want to prevent it. I don't even want to skip exercise. I guess I will walk, I don't want to go home anyways so I wont be skipping my daily walk too.
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