Does anyone else feel like they started gaining weight after they became aware of what weight and stuff was?

When I was 11-12 I was pretty overweight for a kid, I think I was about 170-180, so my parents let this woman put me on a diet, the showed me shows like “my 500 pound life” saying that was going to be me one day, we counted calories and nothing was left out, I measured cereal out, and had to get the exact amount of sauces that were in a serving (like getting only 1tbs of peanut butter), and it worked, I lost weight. But then we moved away from her and I was on my own, my parents didn’t help and I was left with all this information about calories, and was aware more than ever that I had a body, and ended up gaining 50 pounds by the time was 15, it feels like I’m just making exuses, my highest weight was 245 and I’m 200 now, but I don’t have a healthy relationship with food and I don’t think I ever will.

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