I officially hit 210 lbs again today. I started off this summer at 200 lbs, lost 20 by the end of August, and then gained 30 lbs over the course of this semester. I feel really, really terrible about it--I worked really hard this summer, and I remember how tough it was too lose the weight. Now I'm even fatter than before, and am going to have to go through all of that again (for even longer, now that I have an additional 10 lbs to lose!) just to get there I was. And I wasn't even that happy with my weight then; I felt like I was just getting started and still had more to lose. It's really tough to imagine starting all of that over, and I honestly just want to completely give up.
I did so well this summer because I was living in my own apartment and cooking for myself. Once the semester started, I was back at my college with an unlimited mandatory meal plan that sucks up my entire food budget (and more, I'm in so much debt lol). I had to eat all my meals at this terrible buffet-style cafeteria, and I just don't have that kind of self control so I fucking blew it and destroyed all of my progress. Even if I do manage to lose the weight again, I have two more years minimum of this school, so I have no idea how I'm going to keep the weight off. This is in addition to being enormously busy (absolutely brutal course load on top of working two jobs) and stressed all the fucking time at school.
What's even worse is that I feel a ton of pressure to lose the weight quickly, because I want to be able to experience college for at least a little while as a healthy person. I feel like socially, romantically, etc I'm a lot worse off being fat and looking bad. The thought that I'm going to spend my whole time in college looking like shit really hurts, and I desperately want to lose the weight so I can at least enjoy a year or so of it being healthy, but every time I lose weight on a school break I immediately fuck it up because of the stupid cafeterias.
Sorry for the long rant, and thanks in advance to anyone who has advice. I'm 20m 210lbs 6' tall
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