My weight gain in the last 6 months has been 40 pounds. I feel helpless, disgusted with myself, and my depression is hitting an all time low.

My heaviest used to be 410lbs... well I hit a new heaviest at 428lbs and I feel absolutely disgusted. I don’t know how or why I keep doing this to myself.

I find myself rarely having energy most days, I’m exhausted, I’m diagnosed with depression so it hasn’t helped lately but I don’t want to blame all of my weight gain on depression. I’ve posted in this group many times before and it just seems like I’m always falling back off the band wagon. I go to a drive through on my busy days and instead of making the decision to get a small fry and a small sandwich I always feel this intense hunger and get a bigger sandwich and more fries. Or I’ll eat smaller/healthier options and STILL find myself hungry, or even just boredom eating. I feel absolutely out of my mind with how many times I’ve just been back and forth with my weight gain and how much it fluctuates.

I’m in college, I’m only 22 years old, I’m too young to be living my life so unhealthy and so obese. I’ve been trying to do the calorie tracker using my fitness pal but I don’t know what to do to curb this intense hunger I get. I don’t NEED to eat more but my body/mind is telling me I’m still hungry so I do.

Please give me some advice. How can I start a cycle of breaking this back and forth rhythm. How can I stay motivated and keep pushing myself? I have a small goal right now to get back down to below 400 pounds and that means I need to loose 28 pounds to get there. Please give me some words of advice or help.

Chart of my fluctuations in 6 months

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