I'll preface this post by saying I'm not looking for advice. I know what I'm doing (and what I'm doing wrong), I just need to be better at making the right decisions. I need to rant.
So, I'm fat. Always been fat. At around 5"3, I weigh 110KG and built like a balloon on stilts. But I'm trying to not be fat. So I signed up to (another) gym a few months ago.
Today, I overheard a really buff guy say to his equally buff friend "see, bro? This is why I hate coming to the gym so late." (It was 11AM) "This place is full of novices." All whilst looking right in my direction as I was doing some leg presses on a machine.
I have had very slow progress at the gym recently because I still eat like shit (and yes - I have seen a doctor about my weight. I just need to move my butt more and eat better). But I feel stronger. I haven't lost much weight but I definitely have good muscles.
But this guy just made me feel like absolute shit. I ran to the changing room to calm myself down and try not to cry. I know that because of my size, it seems like I'm new to the whole gym thing, but I'm really not. I've been working out for years. But by (indirectly) calling me a novice, it just reinforces how oversized I look. How big I look.
I'm sorry if it seems like I might be overreacting, but a comment as small as that just triggered all the bad shit I believe about myself, and now I'm back home trying not to smash all the mirrors in my house. It is so demotivating and so insulting.
We're all at a gym because we want to better ourselves. Right? This guy might have been a member for longer, but so fucking what? It literally does not matter in the slightest. I should have had the courage to say something to him. Looking back, I wish I did.
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