Progress pic: https://imgur.com/a/1VpLi8k
I haven't been writing for a while because I had to go on several business trips this month and I was certain that I had gained weight because it was really hard to track everything and to control what I eat abroad. Also it is really hard for me to stay on a 1200kcal budget, I've written about that before. Now I'm back and this morning I stepped on the scale to get what I deserve. And apparently I deserve to be not morbidly obese anymore.
I made it, I achieved my huge, huge goal and lost about 89lbs. Yes, there is still work to do and I cannot tell how much I'm looking forward to eating normal. Normal as in "three to four low carb meals a day that actually make me full" and not "normal" as in "five meals a day that are 1000kcal each instead of dealing with my feelings". But it is so worth it, I can't even tell how much. It's not because of the nice clothes, they are a nice add-on (by the way I have no idea how people keep their money together when they can try on every piece of cloth they see) or the realization how differently people treat you when you are fat (to be able to compare is in fact really creepy). But the freedom of pain and the possibility just to put on running shoes and go that I just love. Not being in the way all the time (plane seats!) and actually concentrate on content when you work and talk and not all the time think about how you sit and stand and what people might think about you. It's so much easier when you stop being just too much of yourself all the time. I've been living every day feeling sorry for just being present all my life and that stopped. I deserve to be and it's ok to be me. But I had to figure that out before it was even possible to make a change and I don't think I could have done it without a proper therapy. Now that I have a clue where I'm coming from (basically my parents) I can make actual decisions where I want to go and not just what I should do to please other people (my parents). I have lost so much weight and not just in fat. I love my life to an extent that it's also starting to get a bit creepy because I'm not used to it.
So... what did I actually wanted to write before I drifted into this psycho blabla? Oh yes: I've lost much weight, thank you again and again and again, precious subreddit! (Of course my husband is the one to thank the most but as he really got lazy with his lurking here so I might have to tell him personally. But he's cooking low carb pasta for me right now so I don't want to bother him.) There are still about 24lbs to lose and then comes the difficult part of sustaining, so I will stick around for some more years.
TLDR: Not morbidly obese anymore.
EDIT: English is hard.
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